Skye Nickol Cartwright-Ladner

Hey Baby girl,
 It has been some time since mommy has wrote to you. I am sorry, mommy has been going through alot and she has her good days and her bad days. Since grandma went to Heaven with you, it has been very hard on mommy. All she wants is to have you and grandma back I want to hold you and I want to talk to grandma.
 I know that you both are no longer in pain, but it is still very hard on mommy. Trevor keeps asking me when did he die, and I keep telling him that he did not die. I don't know what to really say to him to make him feel better, because mommy doesn't know what to say to herdelf to make her feel better. I wonder everyday if mommy did something so wrong that I had to lose 2 of the most imporant people in her life.
 Babygirl, Today your dad turned 30. I hope that you looked over him today because with yours and his birthday being so close together I know that he has a hard time with it.
  Mommy loves you so much and I do know that one day I will get to be with you & grandma and everyone else that has gone before me that I love so much and miss everyday. I love yo uso very much baby girl. 
Love,
 Mommy
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO 

Hey sweet angel,

 It is almost your 14th birthday, hard to believe that it has been that long since you where born. I miss you everyday. I know that you know your grandma is now up there with you and for your 14th birthday she will be there with you. Please give grandma a big hug and kiss for mommy ok. I love you all so very much. And I know that one day I will see you all again, and I think that is part of what keeps mommy going. Your brothers are getting so big, and they are so smart I know that you and grandma are watching over them and that you both love us so much. Mommy just wants you to know that she is thinking about you and wants you to know that I miss you and love you so very much.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL!!!!

Do Babies Grow Up in Heaven?
by Unknown

Will I know my baby when we meet again?
Will she have grown up,

not be the infant that died in my arms?
Will I recognize her,

be able to find her among so many others?
Or will she be a stranger to me,

not knowing who I am,
or me knowing her?

Do babies grow up in heaven?
She never got her first tooth,

or said her first words.
No first shoes, no Santa, no first birthday cake.
Will my daughter still be a baby when we meet again?

Do babies grow up in heaven?
Who sings her precious lullabies?
Who holds her close and kisses her everyday?
Who tells her constantly that they love him?

Do babies grow up in heaven?
When we next meet, will she know me?
Will she want to know me?
Will she be my daughter who died at Five months, or a woman, fully grown?
Will I have the joy of being a mother to my daughter for all eternity?

Do babies grow up in heaven?
Will I be able to hold her, love her,

sing lullabies to her?
Will I be able to hold her tiny hand,

or will it be a woman's hand?
Will I ever have the joy that only holding my daughter can bring?
I need to know!

In heaven, is my baby still a baby?

Mommy found this and thought of you, as these are question's I wonder everyday.

I love you Baby Girl.

Mommy

Hey Sweet Baby Girl,

 13 years ago today was the day my world came crashing down. It is the day I lost my sweet baby girl. Mommy did not know for years that it was SIDS that took your life, but even knowing what the cause was, does not make anything easyer. I miss you so much everyday. I want you here with me, I want to have watched you take your 1st step, say your 1st word, give you a 1st birthday party, And watch you grow up. But I know now that God had different plan's, even though mommy wanted you with her. I love and miss you so much baby. Even though it has been 13 years it never get's any easyer.

REST IN PEACE BABY. Mommy LOVES YOU!

Hey Baby Girl,

It is hard to write this. In only a few day's, it will be 13 year's since you left Earth and went to Heaven. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you, and wish that you was still here with me. I don't know how it is for other people, but to mommy, it get's harder with each passing year.

To me it feels like you are always with me, and then other day's you feel so far away. Unless people have lost a child you can never explain to them what you are feeling.

Mommy, has a wish. Her wish is that no mommy who have to have this feeling inside. Because there is a part of me missing. And that Part is YOU!

I love you so very much, I can not put into words how much that I do LOVE and MISS you.

HAPPY EASTER baby girl!!

Hey Sweet Angel,

 It's mommy again, I love you so very much baby girl. And I miss you like crazy. They started mommy on a new sleeping pill, it is working ok I guess. Your brothers are getting so big. Trevor is doing so good in school, and Dakota is just growing so much. Mommy has just been working and cleaning and all that good stuff.

 Mommy wish she could tell you why your daddy or Stepahine haven't light a candle for you in awhile, I guess they have just been busy. The weather has been hot here, so after work mommy has been going for walk's with your brother's. Trevor tries to push Dakota in the stroller, but he always seem's to get it going the wrong way or something, it is just to funny.

 Mommy thinks of you every day and so does Trevor, there is not a day that goes by he does not look at or pick up your picture and talk to you. He tell's me that you are his pretty Angel with wings. It is so cute. I love you baby girl and you sleep tight tonight. Sending you hug's and Kisses and all my love. I love you Angel. XOXOXO

Hey Sweet Angel,

 Mommy was just thinking of you and thought I would write you. My day was ok I cleaned and washed clothes. Cooked dinner and all that fun stuff. Mommy went for her sleep study the other night that was so not fun. Trevor has been a pain today and Dakota is teething. So mommy has had a fun day. Well baby I love and miss you so very much. Sleep tight tonight. Hug's and Kisses. Love Mommy

Hey Sweet Angel,

Mommy, Just wanted to let you know that daddy and Stepahine put some picture's on your page today. They are very beautiful. They are of your resting place and all your stuff.

I miss you so much baby girl, someday's I just don't want to get up, but I know I have to. Your little brother's need me to be strong. I feel like there is a piece of me missing. And that Piece is you Baby girl. But I know that I carry you with me alway's, in my Heart, and thought's. Trevor pick's up your picture when some one comes over and tell's them, this is Skye she has wing's and looks at me.. I think he mean's look's down on me. But he is only 3. Mommy want's to make a trip next summer to come and see you. When Dakota is bigger. I love you baby girl. I hope you sleep tight tonight. don't let the bed bugs bite and if the do bite back. Sweet Dreams Angel

Sending Lot's of Hug's and Kisses to you tonight. Love Mommy